final destination

for wednesday's presentation, the Q&A session was disastrous, with a capital D. the tutor thought our answers were bizzare and the entire class disapproved us. they started to bombard us with so many questions that were unrelated to what we have presented. since the questions were so unrelated, we were clueless about what answers to give. and we (the team) were like sitting ducks.

normally i love Q&A sessions, cos i love to debate, i love to rebut, more importantly i love to tell people how great my idea is and how theirs suck. but i couldn't say a thing that day...because i knew our project lacked substance...basically it's a flop.

i was sad, very very sad. so sad that i actually teared a little in class after the presentation. fortunately i fought back my tears even before anyone notices it...really didn't want to show that i'm weak. i tried my very best to defend the team, but halfway through i just lost morale...and kept my mouth shut...and wither to the back...and try to camouflage myself behind my mates hoping that no one would see me. for this, i despise myself. i felt so useless, and i hate this feeling of useless/helpless-ness.

to sum up. i felt so fucked.

and this terrible feeling didn't just end there. i took it home with me. by the time i got back, i was feeling super exhausted, but i could hardly sleep. throughtout the night i kept thinking "shit i should have said this and that..." "damn i should have answered so and so's question on this and that"... and by the time i was done with dwelling, it was time to wake up and go to school for another presentation.

*yawn*

in contrast, the presentation today was near perfect. transition was smooth, no glitches at all and i gave my speech like a true professional. the class thought the slides looked great and had interesting contents. more importantly, the tutor loved our presentation and was full of praises for our team after. i was over the moon...especially since this particular tutor is one of my fav. fav. professor in NTU!!

the team even went out to celebrate our success afterwards. we had so much good food and drinks and even played bowling. the norwegian exchange students in the team were such fun people to hang out with!

guess...i'm lucky afterall to have ended my final presentation in NTU on a happy note.

this norwegian ang moh on my team is so so so cute!!

new best friend

introducing my new best friend for the past few nights...

can someone do a karate chop on my neck pls?!?!?! arrrghhh! sibeh painful ah!

all because of sitting in front of my laptop for 12 hours a day! and all these are going to end this thursday!!!

after that i am going to watch my HKTVB day and night, day and night, day and night until my DVD player explodes!!! yeah!

ps: tiger balm plaster really quite power. better than salonpas.

not amused

gosh i am so sleep deprived. despite the end of FYP, i still have two project presentations (back to back) next week. i am struggling with the GMS (my core module) report...so much more to do and i am not convinced what we have on hand is of much substance anyway. (try to convince IM <-- my tutor, yah right) and i'm not even amused since this entire shit contributes to 30% of my coursework. i really wanna do well in this shit. nothing less than A is what i'm looking at.

i hate to work with inefficient, unproductive, selfish, irresponsible people...and people who has illogical trains of thoughts, cannot speak coherently and with absolutely zero creativity...trust me, i met lots of the above mentioned in school and i am so not looking forward to becoming colleagues with them when i go to work in the near future. grr.... but thank god for the good and fun ones i've met though!

i wonder if i'll graduate with an honours? if i do, which class? sigh. sometimes i hate myself for becoming so kiasu. it seems like i have given in to peer pressure...(or even on a national scale?) and pressures coming from the high demands of the prestigious organisations that have come to give recruitment talks in NTU thus far.

will i get a good job? define: good job.

麻坡的华语

this is gan si beh funny lor. and we should be proud of our singlish like how he is proud of his 麻坡的华语! kao!

boh liao email

FYP discussion today was terribly sian...so sian that i've decided to send a super boh liao email to one of my professors just to entertain myself...hahaha. and i can't believe that she actually 'entertained' me by replying. she is a very kind woman indeed.

(names deleted to protect identity, heh)

-----Original Message-----
From: #CHEN PEIQI#
Sent: Tuesday, March 13, 2007 5:16 PM
To: XXX(Assoc Prof)
Subject: Lindt Chocolates

Hi!

I have been thinking of those chocolates you bought for the class the other day...I realised I couldn't buy it anywhere in Singapore?! I searched and searched....

Today I finally found them inside the transit area of our airport...wah...So Expensive!...but I couldn't resist and bought it anyway.

I am now very, very happy.......

pq

ps: I know this email is so irrelevant to whatever....but....just wanted to share my excitement with someone. hahaha. FYP is so boring.

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From: XXX(Assoc Prof)
Sent: Tue 3/13/2007 5:30 PM
To: #CHEN PEIQI#
Subject: RE: Lindt Chocolates

Hi Peiqi

This is indeed an unusual email, but I can never be happier when someone shares her joy with me:-) I hope your FYP is wrapping up nicely.

I've had a long day myself...tempted to shut down the computer and leave, before it pours.

See you in class this week.

XXX

othello

my skin was blistering although you cannot really tell from this photo. geez, LL's skin looks nicer hor? ok the only consolation is that, my thighs are slimmer than hers!! YAY! :P

ok, i'm almost done with the peeling. just a little more to go! cannot wait to go and tan again! wants to try indoor tanning leh...at least confirm won't sunburn. anyone knows what the charges like?

there's a reason why i love TP

view from TP canteen. eating lunch here is always a pleasure. view from NTU canteen. eating lunch here is always a pressure. food from TP canteen. cheaper than NTU, very nice plates somemore hor. the food served in NTU canteens...pathetic, same price as coffeeshops but not the same standard. and the styrofoam bowls/plates and plastic forks/spoons just irritate the hell out of me! grr...

TP library has huge screen for students to watch soccer, and even a cable TV corner for them to watch SCV lor. spectacular view from the 10 storey high library, what a lovely campus. look, not a single soul in the library because it's school holidays. and i think this is the right attitude! school holiday = go out chiong with friends what! unlike in NTU, everyone studies 24/7/365 round the clock. recess week also got so many people camp in the study rooms. see liao i sibeh sibeh sian.

best bookshop in Singapore...yes it is TP bookshop, not Mama shop. love it love it love it. sells a wide selection of Meiji candies! the only minimart in NTU is about 800 li away from the main study block. and the selection of snacks...pathetic again.

need i say more? TP rocks and NTU sucks big time. really no horse run. i seriously do not think i will ever step into Boon Lay for a very long long time to come after i graduate from here.

my epidermis is so dead

and so...the peeling has not stopped. i have been leaving shavings of dead epidermis behind everywhere i go. every morning when i get out of bed, a significant amount of dried, crumpled dead skin can be found on the sheets. and everytime i get up from the sofa...same scene.

YES MY DEAD SKIN! wahaha...i know it's so digusting!! i is so 变态! hey, i realised it's kinda therapeutic to peel off dried dead skin from your own body you know?! :P but i must be really careful about leaving traces of my DNA behind...later kena cloned how.

luckily my sunburn thingy didn't stop me from winning my third consecutive gold medal for NTU at the IVP last weekend! :) was quite happy that i won again, but really quite sian to see my opponents give up without much fight. i mean, not trying to be cocky here, but i think the process of the competition is far more important than the results (altho also important lah), and what experience can they hope to gain if they don't try to attack at all? anyways went to see my favourite doc again yesterday...was there to get my cortisone jab for my wrist. yes i love steroids! hopefully it cures my injury once and for all. i also decided to take my chicken pox vaccinations at his clinic since i was there...but i was so unwilling to fold up my sleeves for the injections cos my hands are peeling so badly that i look like i have leprosy! luckily my charming, sexy (but bald) doctor never at any time gave me any look of despise. :D

bye bye ice cream vaan

good times are always short lived :( why you go back to kangaroo land so fast? i is a very sian girl in Singapore now :(

i miss the times where you come and watch Prison Break in my room! i miss the times where we go out and eat FATS all day long! erm....although i don't quite miss the times where you secretly take act cute pictures of yourself using my phone lah... :P sigh, will i see you again? fuck the Aussie PR lah! come back and be kiasu Singaporean!! don't you miss sweating profusely under the hot and humid weather? don't you miss chopping seats at hawker centers with umbrellas and packets of tissue paper? don't you miss taking the MRT like squashed sardines? don't you miss tapping the EZ link card and listen to the SHARP BEEPS it makes?? come back lah! Singapore rulez!