18

好想, 也, 好像, 回到 18 岁.

love my new haircut. 一分钱,一分货!

他也是歌手!

one of my neighbours (i have not figured out from which unit!) has been singing at the top of his lungs almost every night, presumably singing in the shower. he is absolutely out of tune most of the time but for some reason i quite enjoy listening to him. because i can feel that he is really into the song and enjoying himself. i can feel his happiness and that makes me happy too. :)

of course, it helps that he is always singing the song which GEM sang in 我是歌手 after every episode. haha!

everything happens for a reason

sprained my right ankle while walking out for lunch today.. abit sia suay seriously. 走路都会 zek dio. two years ago i ZEK DIOed left ankle, today i zek dio right ankle hah. a colleague of mine said to me: your sprained ankle is 老天's way of asking you to 放慢脚步.

very 阿Q 精神 indeed.

i guess, when i LOST MY VOICE in January it was 老天's way of asking me to talk less and listen more. and when i suffered a bulk of serious food poisoning two weeks ago, that must be 老天's way of telling me: "PQ 不要再吃下去了，你已经很肥 liao!!" =_=|

lucky numbers 2014

i wonder if my lucky numbers are 1 and 4 this year? first, my new apartment number is 14-04.. to come up to my house you must either take elevator #1 or elevator #4..  then, the big announcement i was waiting for at work was made on 14/01/14! i went back to check 4D results for that week and DAMN one of my usual numbers came out in the Starter group sia! sibeh ai wan never buy! nehmind.. 2014 HUAT AH!

老娘我.. 我.. 我..失声了!

lost my voice completely overnight! i think i really kena gek dio by that loser. the first thing that came out of my doctor's mouth when he "heard" me was "what the hell?"... i told him i needed to recover by Monday as i have a presentation to make. he asked if i wanted an injection in my throat and i was like: "wah 不用不用，我 Monday 不是开演唱会!!" =_=|||

went to have dinner alone at that little Cantonese restaurant down Stanley Street after my hair appointment. the uncle who took my order must have felt really bad for me (sick and eating dinner alone) so he gave me a bowl of free soup! he also reminded me to finish it because such "good stuff" will make me feel better.

人间 is 有情的!!!

i miraculously got SOME of my voice back right after dinner!! it is either the soup or the super powerful steroids the doctor gave me.. i tend to want to think it was the soup :)

ai zai.. ai zai..

i have been really out of sorts recently. "mindfulness" index is currently ZERO. been walking around the same streets again and again with an agenda yet aimlessly. knowing what i want yet not knowing what i want at the same time. careless mistakes every single day.. everything seems fluid, everything seems unsure.. everything is NOT settled. INSECURITY! - yes, this must be it. i am feeling insecure about money.. work.. new house.. just too much going on at the same time. give it another week, maximum two - everything MUST have a conclusion.

meanwhile... PQ AI ZAI LAH!

大脑

今天.
我对一个人发脾气了...
我发现当我在很累以及"失血过多"的情况下,
我很容易沉不住气.

今天.
我忘了带大脑出门了...
小脑它此时战胜了大脑,
造成了小小失控.              

movember

but what i really want is DECEMBER!!!

shop like a PRC

i do not know what got over me today.. somehow just felt like spending some money? bought a pair of tory burch shoes and a burberry bag... all the buying decisions, made in a flash. but all the items were.. so "not me"!.. =_=||

TOTO

so my dream to win the 10 million dollars Hong Bao TOTO is officially over as the results were released. but apparently the mum texted me next morning to say i struck "3 and a half numbers".. haha ok i did not know 3 and a half numbers also can win money one. but yah.. 60 bucks not bad lah.. if anything this is "heng heng" money so must take! HUAT AH!!

otah also "staff retreat"

been craving for otah from this shop for the longest time and for two days in a row i went with hope, only to be disappointed twice!! sigh. well at least i hope you guys enjoyed the staff retreat!!

0955am on 18 Jan

ALL SOLD OUT.

as expected - it was a bag of mixed feelings between disappointment and sigh of relief. it has been a family project of sort, with the BIL helping to research and coordinate things from his end to the mum going to showflats with the niece and nephews.. we all hoped it could come to a happy ending. at the same time, it was a huge commitment and i was not sure if the decision was a right one to take at this point in time..

well, guess what? maybe it is time to re-visit those ambitious traveling plans again! hohoho..

inception #2

ok, i was wrong, THIS was not a record yet.. because i dreamt about work, SEVEN DAYS IN A ROW this week!! WALAUEH! try topping my level of sian-ness on this!!..  oh but in between the dreams about work i also dreamt about a "真字".. which was 2681.. which did not strike by the way (haha yeah i actually checked the Singapore pools website lah).. so random my dreams LOL!

anyways that is not the zhong dian. zhong dian is.. i am very sian. which, is also not the zhong dian. i guess the zhong dian is.. i do not know how to stop thinking/dreaming about work!

although i welcome more dreams about "真字s", well only if they are ZHUNz! tee gong po pi HUAT LAH!

TRAUMA MAMA!

i knew the can of baygon i bought two years ago was going to come in handy one day!! shit finally came face to face with a massive cockroach today.. i was determined exterminate it even though it was THE SCARIEST thing ever!!

first thought: i need to relocate back to Singapore..
second thought: i need a man in the house.

sigh.

seriously not the kind of situation i want to deal with after coming back from work at midnight.

double sigh..

the royal wayang

a warm (literally) welcome to Prince William and Kate Middleton!!

win

there are two things i want to win in the month of September. both things will not make a difference 10 years from now. that is how frivolous they are..

but i want to win leh!!!

hmm ok if you include striking TOTO then make that three things i want to win. haha!

单纯

today a taxi driver said to me.. "you Singaporeans sometimes can be a little bit too 单纯 (naive).." haha, even a taxi driver could tell. i guess he was right. he was also telling me not believe too much of what others say to me and never to bare my soul to others at work.

wise words indeed.

i sometimes wonder if these people were sent to me by God?? they always appear in the least expected places and times and leave me with golden words of wisdom..

think, think, talk

i have a book. it is called the Things-I-Want-To-Say-But-Cannot-Say book.. trust me, it is going to be a best seller. the second series to that book is the Things-I-Should-Not-Say-But-Say-Already book.. trust me again, it will be a lot thicker than the first book.

sigh.

再见单人床

alice..

我爱你..

但是,

我不能爱你.

is this painful or is this painful?!

i would like to think this all adds up to my experience in HK - seeing an acupuncturist in a dodgy building with manual elevator doors (those with foldable metal gate kind) in Yau Ma Tei..

though to be honest, i am not sure if this is the kind of experience i enjoy having?!

anyways: do not ever let anyone tell you acupuncture does not hurt, because.. IT DOES! fuck!

i just want my poor leg to recover :(