Monday, January 09, 2006

if only i could turn back time...

H asked me (again) when do i want to meet the President of the Karate Federation. apparently they (the Karate people) have been asking him quite a few times if i'm interested to join their national team although i cannot understand why they think i may be good enough to represent them in the 2007 Bangkok SEA Games. i don't mind picking up the sport from scratch...but being a national athlete all over again requires some serious consideration. the amount of time and effort i'd have to put in...the discipline, stamina, concentration, energy...argh, i really don't know.

perhaps i'm just trying to find excuses, because i know that TKD is still my number one passion and nothing can replace it. i went for my 3rd dan grading over the weekend, it was tiring and nerve wrecking, nevertheless very enjoyable. my sparring partners were mostly guys and i think i did well against them. i was watching my competition videos in my room and it made me so depressed, cos i know i'm still good and i've what it takes to continue competing internationally...but somehow i had given up on the chance to do so.

i was really tired...tired of all the other things that came with the sport.

if only i was more principled. if only i had a stronger mind. if only i had perservered. i'm sure i can make history (in a small way) one day. now it's too late. (or not?) if only i could turn back time...i wonder if the ending would still be the same? guess i'll never know now.

people try to put you down, because they know that you are good. the only person who can tell you, you are not good enough is yourself.

You are beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring you down
You are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring you down
Don't you bring me down today...

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

Peiqi, go and pursue things that you love..even its fail, at least you have tried your best before.. We will always support our dear friend , CHAMPION CHEN.

barneysaurus said...

Eh! If you love something... GO FOR IT :)!!!! Otherwise how to call you champion ;)? GO KICK ASS :D!

Anonymous said...

miss chen,

go with yr gut feeling. :) it's actually not bad to try karate, but then, to pick up a sport all over again (high intensity) will be pretty tough although i believe yr sport talent is freakin' impressive.

-liza-

Anonymous said...

I happen to be really bored and visit your blog out of curiosity.

It's never too late till you know it's really too late. Train your stamina and techniques again and create history.

Why wait... till you break your leg and never be able to compete again... when that time comes, you really can't turn back time and know that it's really too late.

Fight. You know you want to.

Anonymous said...

A bit too late to comment..
I just wanna say I like that photo a lot lah.. because you really looked so good in it.. ^^

You are beautiful when you do the things you like, so just do it lah~~ Think too much wait really too late.

-FYP 'pai mia' leader =P-