45th

this year's Nationals are coming, my match will be on the 27th. competition is steep this time with many up and coming young players. some of them pray hard to not meet me in their matches, while some came with the intention of pinning me down. i think it is going to be an exciting competition.

someone just asked me if i feel the pressure to win, and i said No. but in fact the answer is Yes. i know i cannot accept defeat, especially this time. i wonder what will my reaction be if i really lose my match this year. will i be able to accept my defeat graciously? i really cannot tell yet.

i cannot remember since when, i started to keep a record of the competitions that i have been to. this Nationals will be my 45th one. is this a good number to retire? heh...will this Nationals be my 7th consecutive gold? i hope so, but i really don't know.

some tell me that i will win for sure while some speculate that i am over the hill. will i win this year? i'm excited to find out too.