my mover's party!

woohoo...last week was my movers' party (in case you guys didn't know, i have moved department) it was a night filled with fun and laughter indeed. i realised that the entire GCUS department was actually quite big! there was never a photo where we can fit everyone together.this is The Boss whom i will miss badly, i really like her managing style, cos most of the time it seemed like i was managing her. ahaha...she's too nice and i'm too evil, that's why.our batch of movers, so happy to move with tina, mel and mr kotawala!and to everyone's surprise, the presents we got as a mover was a free ride at the reverse bungy at Clarke Quay! i was very happy cos i've been thinking of trying it for a long time! but i cannot say the same for the rest as they battle with their fear in heights! haha. but for someone who has done a real bungy before - this is like see-saw. :Pi'm sure you see some nervous faces! look at Kongg (in the middle) ahahaand of course the smart ass PQ is here to create havoc again! i got the movers to secretly buy 2 more tickets for our managers! (middle and right in picture). HAHAHA and they totally freaked out when they saw us waving the tickets at them~ in disbelief. but really kudos to them for being such a good sport and went up there anyways even though their treshhold of heights are limited to like standing on a balcony of a 2 storey house. hee!we even got certificates from The Bosses after the daring stunt!after the crazy reverse bungy the remaining ones went to chillout and a bar nearby as the weather was simply tooo warm!one of my best friend in GCUS! we call each other CAPTAIN!! haha...The two Bosses together. lovely people.i wonder what were we talking about? looks like a serious discussion over here. heh.some of my team members in Hsupremes.whether it is for the better or worse, i'm glad i have moved on anyways.

why we so kiasu!

i was watching a variety show on channel U tonight. it was about getting high school kids to come and compete in a chinese language proficiency game. the whole aim of this is to promote the chinese language and to get kids these days to like chinese... but guess what? like 90% of those participants are PRC students!!

this is really ridiculous!!!!!! defeats the whole damn purpose. and of course the whole reason why schools send their top PRC students to come and compete in this show is because of one word - KIASU!!!

all wanna win only. nabeh. couldn't stand that show and i ordered my mum to change channel immediately! damn those ah tiongs.

you know you've been spending too much time in office when...

you desperately look for your access card (instead of house keys) when you take the elevator home...

you wait for the water to come out of the tap automatically when you're in front of the wash basin...

you open the fridge at home and wonder where has the all the coke zero gone to??...

you find that one monitor is never enough when you switch on the computer at home.. (i look at 4 screens at work)

GIVE ME BACK MY LIFE!!

it was such a roller coaster ride coming to sis' wedding. to think i almost missed it because of work?? i'm such an ass. i had to miss the hen's night (better known as bachelorette night) as a result and i paid bloody 50 pounds for it! :( well i'm glad the mum went for it anyways.after the dinner cruise they went to watch the famous Simon Cabaret show.anyways i was lucky enough to come to Phuket in the end after so much hoo-ha and help from my managers. i boarded the plane alone on thursday morning, totally knocked out throughout the entire journey - didn't even realise it had landed in Phuket!i was taken away by the awesome view within Dusit Laguna - it's a very nice place to stay in! and it totally took my mind away from the hustle and bustle of city life.and i'm sure i made it clear that i was here for a wedding. no?!last family dinner before the wedding day...then came the most awaited moment of the trip, the chapel procession! the bro-in-law was sweating non stop whilst waiting for the bride to arrive, heh. very hamsen lah brother!the five most important man (and boys): P - the groom, G - the best man, C - dad of the groom, L and R - the ring bearers.finally the bride has arrived with the dad! the sis was really pretty that day. no one would disagree. i'm sure dad is very proud of her. :)here comes Lewis the ring bearer. he did a great job that day considering that he boycotted the chapel rehearsal the day before cos he was too busy with his Nintendo.Lewis and Reece - my bro-in-law's nephews. so cute lah!they even had their names engraved outside the chapel to prove that they were wedded here. imagine bringing your kids/grandkids to Phuket next time to show them this. awesome.after the chapel procession the guests were ferried back to the beach by boats for a sunset cocktail party before dinner startsit was a lovely evening with a romantic sunset, sand, waves...and more importantly - free flow of pina cola and long island tea!
they even brought a baby elephant to accompany the guests!~ haha.one of the highlights of the dinner was the lighting of sky lanterns. we all wished for a blessed marriage for the couple - but i'm sure my dad secretly wished to strike 4D on the coming sunday!
check out this cute little girl! she made a mess with the chocolate fondue served during dessert time. adorable or what!Sam, such a great guy. He also practices Taekwondo. haha nope we were not wrestling each other, but we were at the last dance of the night. :)and did i say free flow of champagne as well? damn nice, my favourite Moet.ahhh...time to go back again. but i felt like i could stay there forever...and not come back to the corporate world! back to reality now.... yawnz.

obsessed with my new PC

yay...so happy to have finally bought a new PC! my laptop is wayyy too slow. gosh cannot stand it anymore. although i really have to take my hat off IBM...they really make ever lasting machines man!

yup and so i hooked up my new PC to my 32" LCD TV and i absolutely am addicated to the internet all over again! and i'll show you why!
ahhh...i got rid of my computer table...and bought a new rug and big fluffy pillows so that i can just lie flat on the floor whilst surfing net! haha...check out those wireless keyboard and mouse! awesome....i love my room!

the day i felt bad for the whole day

the earlier part of today was TOTALLY SHITTY!!!! was supposed to play badminton at 11am in TP with friends from work. but it turned out that the entire sports hall was shut down for renovations! damn TP sports office assholes..they should have informed!! i felt super duper duper guilty cos my friends at work and The Boss mostly stay at the West and it was a wasted trip for them! felt really bad the whole day for the mess up. totally lost face.

so i sort of made up to my friends by sending them back home on a cab..and treated them to a movie. now i will have to think of how to make up to the friend who drove and had to U-turn and also The Boss who was on the train to Tampines for nothing. sigh!

second part of the day was nice though. chilling at an Indian friend's house. he's also from work. nice place he has, he cooked for us and we had a bottle of wine. chatted alot, from taiwan-china straits politics to the chemical molecules in Coke Zero?! he studied chemical engineering so would you please excuse him? hah. oh well i'm so sleepy now...should i go to sleep or should i read a book?

hmm..okie i think the answer is pretty obvious. sigh. zZzzzZ...

do-not-disturb-cos-limpei-wanna-sleep-liao

i am always talking to ah siao like as if he understands me. we often engage in very serious discussions concerning family to career matters... but of course the communication is usually one way...with him occassionally letting out a "meowww...grrr do-not-disturb-cos-limpei-wanna-sleep-liao" kind of groan. anyways here's what he looks like now...and i don't understand why my friends think he is obese?!
anyways been thinking alot for these couple of days. from life to career planning. in some ways i am an achiever - i make things happen. and sometimes, i simply wait for things to happen.

more often than not i know what is supposed to be done, what kinds of behavious to exhibit...but successfully executing it is another thing altogether. i need to have a happier life, do happy things, have happy thoughts, hang out with happy people. so many things to think about! perhaps i need more than a male tom cat to share my thoughts... if you know what i mean.

oh well, for now at least i know... do-not-disturb-cos-limpei-wanna-sleep-liao...

night night~

quitting while you are ahead is not the same as quitting

hmm... another two of my colleagues left the firm today.... i have lost count of the number of people who have left since i joined.

i wouldn't say i was "affected" by their resignation per sae (since we were not thaaat close). but i cannot stop thinking about their premature departure. when i saw HR shook hands and said "all the best" to the second guy at the door..... i thought to myself: did HR meant what she said or was it just a nicer way of saying Goodbye to a disloyal piece of shit? anyways HR is pretty much immuned to these exit cases by now. i was actually quite happy for the guy who left, he is a talented young man who must have found a better job somewhere else and was brave enough to leave behind what he has built (achievements, credibility, relationships) to start from scratch again.

then you start thinking...so why do some people choose to leave... and you ask yourself why are you still here? of course you turn your head around and you see the people who are with the organisation for the longest time.. you then ask again; what made them stick it out for so long? well everyone has different needs and expecations and obviously their own personal agenda...

although it is is cliche when you say "all good things must come to an end"... it still struck me hard that, the people you have at work changes from time to time. more often than not, it changes faster than you had expected. but the nature of your job remains the same most of the time... and more often than not, doesn't change as much as you wish it could have! so should your career move be dependent on the kind of people you work with or the kind of work you have to do?

of course in between you have this catalyst called MONEY thrown in to make this whole equation work. but what if money is not a source of motivation in itself or worse, if the amount of money in this case is not even worth mentioning... money can only propel you to X amount of distance. where then can you find your self worth? how does this whole balance scale work for you now?

so what value are you adding to this organisation, in return; what value are you creating for yourself? if not personal development and career progression, then is it generating wealth and what if the answer is none of the above? if you realise...it brings us back to the original question of: why are you still here?

short sighted gains vs. long term interests. choose one.

yes a choice has to be made. i am so good at making rational decisions for just about everything and everyone... except when the decision involves me. i am one of the worse decision makers in this sense.

but at least for now, i have decided. i shall go to sleep, wake up and go back to my job.

trying to be ATAS

so what have i been up to?

well, my biggest purchase last weekend was a Fitness First membership! yup it cost me 150 bucks to join each month... i hope it is all worthwhile. so far i've been to the gym twice and joined 3 of their classes. haha i was at this body combat class (mix of taekwondo, karate, boxing etc)... i kept "armm chio-ing" when the instructor did his "kicks" and "moves"... but i still respect his energy and drive when instructing... even when the class is not "high" they will "zi high" which is very important. :)

and of course...i bought a new pair of REALLY cool Asics track shoe just so i wear it to the gym. must act ATAS wat. hee hee, so that's another 150 bucks gone...

oooh...and i got a cool pair of Adidas shades that cost 288 bucks! hmm but i didn't have to pay a single cent cos a friend of mine from work bought it for me and claimed under company account. muahaha...so happy! i used up my quota for the year already all thanks to my stupid root canal. (i get 700 bucks per year as dental and eye-care allowance). all thanks to him i get a pair of new shades..woo hoo... not that bad afterall! :)

valentine's day

so what's the difference between celebrating valentine's day when you are 25 yrs old and when you are 55? hmm...

today The Boss (25 yrs old) received a bouquet of 99 white roses from The Boyfriend. apparently last year her bouquet consisted of 199 white roses but she complained that it was too heavy to carry around... which is why this year The Boyfriend gave her 99 roses "ONLY".

tonight The Mum (55 yrs old) was complaining to The Dad about not being romantic enough to give her flowers for valentines day...

mum: 今天是情人节你连一束花都没有!
dad: 谁说的?... 我每个月都送你花 hor！

mum: 哪里有?!
dad: 那里没有?!

dad: 每个月我都准时送钱给你花！那个不是花 meh??!
mum: =_="

yes, dysfunctional parents breeds dysfunctional kids; ie: ME! and my stupid sis.

chinese new year

chinese new year came and went... it was a good break though, 4 days of holidays. quite enjoyed myself although i wasn't in the festive mood. but as usual, we can always count on GOOD FOOD during CNY!mum's really an awesome cook, sis's BF enjoyed eating at our place so much. heh... and of course i had to shelve my great dieting plans!i only received like 5 ang pows this year! hah... and one of those 5 was kapok-ed from ah siao somemore! i took his angpow and kept it for myself :Pquite happy to have met up with couple of friends who were back from out of town. met Jem who is back from Sydney...been quite some time since we chit chatted throughout the night. Vaan is back from Melbourne and he officially weighs more than 100kgs now! wat the hell such a slacker! EC is back from Beijing and surprisingly she looked like she lost some weight! hahahaa... Mel is back from Hongkong and he added one more tattoo on his neck to his collection...

nice...to meet up with friends. nice.

the guy friend again

on MSN...

qix: ooooeeeeiiii!!! i desperately need to lose weight!
qix: teach me howwww!
the guy friend: make more love

qix: liddat will lose weight meh? how?
the guy friend: ride on him

qix: hmm...but i thought usually the horse works harder than the jockey?
qix: in this case i should be ridden on...
the guy friend: either way it works, i can be your jockey

qix: ....

i don't know why i'm still friends with the guy friend.

i am not your Champion Chen anymore...

was watching the re-screen of 谁与争锋 (the ch8 wushu show starring Terrence Cao and Vincent Ng) on TV tonight...

it was showing a scene on sparring competition between different martial artists and it sparked past memories of my own TKD competitions. i ransacked through the VCD box and found my competition videos. started playing them on my big ass 32" TV in my room... images of myself training in national squad... sights and sounds of local and overseas competition... all came back.

i miss training, sweating, muscle aches, injuries, wearing the national flag proudly on my left chest, butterflies in stomach while waiting for my next bout, the anticipation, excitement, adrenaline rush of scoring a point... most importantly... i miss feeling like a CHAMPION.

i miss the smug on my face which i always have after winning the gold medal... i miss the fact that i walk around with my nose in the air and how i was so haolian and people hate me for my guts but could do nothing with it... i miss people shouting my name cheering for me, giving me the thumbs up after i win a match beautifully.

i really miss TKD. i really miss competitions, i'm still hungry to win... what can i do to fill this emptiness in me?

if only i could turn back time... would i have done things differently?

pretty sad now actually... got a little emotional... cried abit while thinking...

i heaved a great sigh and stopped missing all that i miss when i saw that the time now is 315am. in less than 3 hours i will be back in The Office.. to my seat, my desk, my home for the next 10 hours or more. go to a job without excitement, a job where i swallow my pride and a job that mostly makes me feel like a LOSER and never a CHAMPION.

i shall go sleep now.

itching to leave my job??

it was a quiet Saturday morning where hardly anyone was in the office. i picked up The Straits Times papers and started reading it. all of a sudden a big shot ang moh HR lady appeared from nowhere.... she walked by my desk and saw that i had.................THE RECRUIT SECTION in my hands!!!!

walau.

and the reason why i didn't even realise her presence is because i was totally engrossed in whatever i was reading. ie: job postings

!!!

aiyoh...do i act like someone itching to leave her job??!

operating on a deficit

went to JB today with OHL who was my poly yr 1 lecturer! how cool is that. heh... hmm time flies man i've known her since i was 17 yrs old which means 9yrs ago! hah...

apart from all the "must-do's" in JB ie: cut + colour hair, massage, shopping, eat good food... i especially had a wonderful time chatting with her about anything and everything...better known as: gossipping.

talked about life, school, career, future, family... money!... she's definitely one of my bestest poly lecturer man. i can talk so much crap, create trouble for her to clean up, give her all my nonsense and she'll still love me for who i am. hah...

*dang*

was fun today, but spent so much money there too...i came back and realised...after paying this month's credit card bill i am officially operating on a deficit! arghh! let me ask The Dad for money :P i am such a loser daughter i know!

how much are you worth? literally...

random conversation #336 with The Dad in the car:

dad: qi ah.... not say i want to say...but you really quite fat now
me: walau eh paaaa...you got more direct abit not?

dad: aiyah...we are father and daughter, cannot be honest meh?
me: =_=" ........

dad: tell you what, let's strike a deal
me: whaaaat lahhhh?!?!

dad: promise me you'll shed 5 kgs, and i will give you $5,000.
dad: 1 kg = $1,000...onz?
me: YOU SIAO ISSIT!

dad: i'm serious!! for every kg you lose i give you $1,000, but you must lose at least 5kgs and must maintain till next year lahh!
me: hmm not bad hor? my 肉 (meat) sounds like machiam it's 龙肉 (dragon meat)...

random conversation #337 with The Dad in the electronics store:

me: fwah paaa....if we top up just 100 bucks more can upgrade to 32" LCD TV liao
dad: siao boh 32" is too big for your room lah!! later eyesight spoil...

me: but top up 100 bucks more nia!!! i want lahhhh.... *starts whining tactic*
dad: ok fine, i'll pay for it if you like it enough

*me thinking: wah seh...i thought of paying it myself but since dad offered...heh heh...*

dad and i queuing up to pay....

dad: don't forget our deal ok? this TV is like deposit...
dad: shed one kg for me to see next week first

*FAINT*

我说的是...那个时候...

昨晚我睡得很香，很甜...
好久，好久没有这种感觉了.
今天下午一点钟才起床...
醒来后，还对自己傻笑了一会儿.
心里怀着满满幸福的感觉，真的好开心!

我仿佛又回到了那个时侯... 我说的是...

天天赖床， 睡到太阳都照屁股的那个时侯...
不上学也没关系的那个时侯...
没有考试就没有烦恼的那个时侯...
不需要付太责任的那个时候...
做错事只需要一笑而过的那个时候...
"将来" 对我来说还很遥远的那个时候...
大家都让着我的那个时候...
无忧无虑， 不受约束的那个时候...
衣来伸手，饭来张口的那个时候...

说穿了，我就是不想长大啦!

peanuts

you pay peanuts, you get monkeys. and in my company, they expect us to be genius monkeys that can perform expert acrobatic tricks overnight...

i am tired....from all that crap training.

pillowfull of qix's saliva

been trying to sleep off the pain but apparently it refused to go away. and my whole pillow is full of saliva cos cannot close my mouth fully. DAMN GROSS! muahahaha... damn grumpy now, every little thing can potentially make me tick! *hear me roar!*

i'll have to find a way to remind myself to not lose my cool especially at work! grr...

the day i nearly became Toothless Chen

my toothache was so bad that i had to leave work halfway to see a dentist. i was almost in tears when i turned around to ask The Big Boss for her permission to leave. i think she was quite stunned too when she saw my face...so she said "FWAH yes please leave like NOW!"

when i finally saw a dentist (i went to three clinics!) he was like god's send from heaven. but good times don't last very long. he was trying so hard to see what he could do to salvage my screwed up set of teeth by not extracting anything. he said: "to save you from becoming boh gay at such a young age...

1 filling needs to be replaced
2 root canal plus crowning has to be done
3 in grown wisdom tooth will have to be addressed (most likely surgery)
4 (or more) cavities needs to be filled at various places!"

he nearly refused treatment when he found out i have heart murmur! (he asked if i had any heart/cardiac problems like hole in heart/heart murmur =_=") i said to him: "i don't care even if my heart were to stop now just STOP MY PAIN!" sigh...yes i was that desperate. :(

today i only had the money (and the energy) to like do one root canal thingy... will have to come back for many more visits to fix everything! i called The Boss after dentist and the anesthetics have not worn off by then so i sounded damn LAO HONG on the phone. she couldn't stop laughing at me! BOO HOO HOO!

in conclusion: i walked out of the dentist with a swollen left face, $1,200 poorer and a two day MC...

(i shall fully utilize my MC by going for a facial and shopping!...both activities do not involve TALKING, CHEWING and any sort of MOUTH MOVEMENTS so it makes sense. i'm not cheating the company. LOL)

American Gangsta

just back from watching American Gangster with a bunch of friends from work. nice show... pretty thought provoking for me. let me share my thoughts on some of the memorable quotes from the movie.

"you're too loud, you're making too much noise. listen to me, the loudest one in the room is the weakest one in the room."
mind you, there is a lot of truth in the saying "empty vessels make the most noise". there's a difference between being loud and being prominent. i want to stand out at work, but not seen as someone who is all talk and no substance...

if you had watched the movie, Frank Lucas' downfall was brought upon when he broke his own rule of staying low profile. he wore this really expensive (and loud) fur jacket to the boxing game; that was when he caught the attention of the authorities. second takeaway point for this; if you fuck up the rule, the rule fucks you up.

"quitting while you're ahead is not the same as quitting."
knowing when to stop while you're at its best... in a way i was happy i quitted Taekwondo while i was at my peak. look, 7 times consecutive national champion? i don't think anyone in Singapore would ever exceed my achievements... i was sure i could achieve even more if i continued training, if not for the dumb old assholes who are power hungry and play sports with politics. fuck them all... i'm so glad they're paying for their mistakes now. ever since the SEA Games silver i won for my country... TKD is basically nothing but just a bunch of trash who never wins in the eyes of the government...

"judges, lawyers, cops, politicians. they stop bringing dope into this country, about a hundred thousand people are gonna be out of a job."
sometimes, ethics are not the best interest for everyone. always look at the bigger picture. so what if you've done something that seemed "inethical" at that moment in time? if you piece it together...it may just make the whole world work right for everyone. don't be a stick in the mud and be all uptight about moral standards and stuffs, totally cannot stand it. look at what's best for the interest of most people...

"ya are what ya are in this world. that's either one of two things: either you're somebody, or you ain't nobody."
i've always said i wanted to be somebody...well i guess i should have have been more specific... hahaha

Shut Up Move On

drama mama happened in office today... people crying, managers put in tight spot. no one likes bad news... but i really think people should shut up and move on...including MYSELF!

‘Shut Up’
- to stop what you’re doing
- take time out to reflect
- let go of baggage and beliefs that hinder your potential.

‘Move On’ means
- tomorrow can be different from today
- look for new possibilities.
- don’t just think about it, take action.

1) take responsibility for your own life. remove the i-am-victim t-shirt and stop lamenting about how others have failed you. no one owes u nothing!

2) take charge of your thinking. thinking affects emotions, which in turn affect actions, which always leads to results. you need to overcome ‘faulty thinking’ which brings about undesirable results.

3) understand how setbacks affect you and how to recover from them. we all need time to wallow a little... just be careful how long it lasts.

4) increase your understanding and awareness of other people’s world. this will help to bring about more successful relationships.

5) change comes through action not intention. carpé diem, seize the day!

6) create your own future rather than leave it to chance. forget the attitude que sera, sera, whatever will be, will be... how to make your time on this planet the best that it can be.

wet dreams

on MSN tonight...

the guy friend: peiqi u there?
qix: yes here, sorry was in shower...wassup...btw im naked LOL

the guy friend: miss u lah...i dreamt of u leh...just 2 days back
the guy friend: it's the first time in my life
qix: u kidding me? wat was the content?
the guy friend: censorED!!!
qix: muahahahaa was i devouring you bit by bit?

the guy friend: before u anyhow think, i rarely dream of having sex
the guy friend: i cant believe its u
the guy friend: i nearly jumped out of bed...haha
qix: dont blufff! i think you don't wanna wake up lor
qix: i hope tonight's my turn to get wet dreams...

the guy friend: really.. im not lying
the guy friend: i never had a wet dream in my life lor
qix: now im worried... i'm making guys having wild thoughts abt me

the guy friend: haha...im sorry
the guy friend: u were rather busty though
the guy friend: so i guess its not u
the guy friend: i mean the face is urs.. but body confirm is not

qix: FUCK U
qix: i hate u
the guy friend: haha
the guy friend: maybe we should get drunk one day and try it...
the guy friend: and wake up laughing the next day

qix: ....

i don't know if i should continue being friends with the guy friend.

stop making resolutions that do not work

my 2007 new year's resolution was:

1. be 55 kgs by June, maintain weight until Dec'07
2. chew my food (at least 10 times) properly before i swallow it
3. do not add salt to my food before i even taste it

i achieved half of my first resolution. i hit under 55 kgs but it did not last past August! thanks to the BB pantry and the Peking ducks. do i chew my food properly before swallowing?? hmm..i guess i did? resolution number 3 was definitely a failure. yes.. i'm such a potential diabetic patient. anyone wants to invest in my life-term policy? there's a high chance of me servicing it. maturity date = short, rate of return = high. worthy investment.

so any resolutions for 2008?

1. think, think, talk...
2. read more books and news
3. stop being an undecisive bitch