final destination 2

UPDATED!

0257 hrs:
in just another 6 hours time (at 9am), i will sit for my last exam paper in NTU. i am excited cos i cannot wait to get it over and done with. yet, i feel a tingling of sadness... as much as i say i hate NTU and how CMI it is... i think i will miss my days there.

0525 hrs:
gosh i am still awake!!! in fact, wide awake! i feel so excited...over what i don't know?! should i catch the first train to Boon Lay now?? hmm...

2359 hrs:
yeap, i guess this is really final

my last time staying up through the night to study for an exammy last time taking the ever-so-crowded-with-kiasu-and-sometimes-smelly undergradsmy last time sitting in an examination hallmy last exam paper taken in NTUto be happy or sad? oh well, guess it doesn't matter anymore now?

i have good heart, so says Raven

was chatting with Raven on MSN other night...about his recent career move as a result of his passion (even if it meant a huge pay cut). he shared career insights with me since i'll be joining the ranks of the unemployed pretty soon ...bleah

RaVeN: after 5 years of being sensible... and trying to work and also keep my passion part-time..I thought..what the HECK...

RaVeN: money is impt. but hard to find a job with money + passion.
RaVeN: choose watever job u want. juz make sure u know what u want. then don't regret.
RaVeN: u seem like the sort who will be happier if u do the things u like...
RaVeN: u like to complain abt needing money..but I think..u'll complain a lot more abt other things.

qix: u can just be direct - ie: i like to complain about everything :P:P

RaVeN: no lar. after so many years...i know u...a bit.
RaVeN: u like to complain only. but u're a very easy-going person.
RaVeN: and accomodating.
RaVeN: and caring..

qix: woaahhh....i super gan dong. ahem. albeit a little shameless, i agree with what u say.

RaVeN: u are lar. some ppl say all the right things, never complain, but they have evil heart.
RaVeN: u got a good heart.

qix: but too bad i say all the wrong things right?!...boo

somehow i felt supremely happy after the conversation. well, you know how at times...when you self-reflect on your behaviours and how you treat people and stuffs? then you don't really know if you're doing things the right way, if you have been treating people well?...it is times like these you need a pat on your back and someone to tell you that you are indeed a nice person. :)

yay! i have good heart, so says Raven!

SCUBA

the dives started during the boat ride from Mersing to Tioman...we started off by snorkelling first and i thought that was very already quite fun, that is until i tried the real scuba diving!by the way, i just found out that SCUBA is actually an acronym, it stands for Self Contained Underwater Breathing Apparatus and was invented by a French; Jacques Cousteau. hahaha check out my ugly hair :P ready to take the plunge! the underwater world is really awesome. looking at the marine life through an aquarium and actually being inside the ocean is such an entirely different experience. everything just slows down and it is so quiet. i felt like i was in another dimension. i felt like i could just leave all my troubles (my exams haha) behind on land... and plunge right into the water.finding nemo? i found nemo... and found other stuffs too...i was so lucky to spot a sea turtle swimming beside me! and i saw a damn big cuttlefish...but i felt a bit guilty lah cos my first reaction was: wah...i think it will taste damn good with sambal belacan sia... "_"evil sea urchins! they are like everywhere! and very dangerous too... i kept my eyes wide open just to make sure i don't kena poked by them. anyways, scuba diving, highly recommended for all. but one very, very important thing to take note. be sure to go with people you like, cos the company makes a great difference. afterall you spend most of the time on the boat interacting/chatting and you want to do that with people whom you can relate to :)

mai siao siao!

now, who says my ah siao is fat?! he is nothing compared to this cat at the coffeeshop downstairs! i think i must start carbo-loading ah siao...cannot lose to other cats lor! especially since ah siao is domesticated...how can he be slimmer than strays who are supposedly very pitiful and hungry all the time?

some updates about my exam revisions: I AM GOING SCUBA DIVING THIS WEEKEND! now...you should know how much work i have done, so stop asking me, my NTU mates!

but seriously, i cannot believe i am studying for my diving theory test instead of my GMS exam!! i take my hat off myself. i siao liao.

hi-life

today's lunch at hotel miramar's ikoi retaurant was good. went with two of my ex TP lecturers, we talked about going there forever. before they left school they actually told their colleagues that they have a lunch appointment to "build" alumni...of course the alumni in this case is Yours Truly. and being very hardworking and responsible workers, they hurried back to show face work after (a 3 hour) lunch. hahaha....
after lunch Mel picked me up and we went to this Boat Asia launch at One°15 Sentosa Cove... i have never been there before but cannot help thinking that it bears a resemblance to the waterfront in NZ! (except that NZ is nicer) Singapore is so copy cat lor.

anyways, this is where all the rich people park their yatchs. this particular med sized boat costs a whooping $150,000! this is excluding all the maintainence/ petrol/ parking fees hor.

Ling and her daughter was on this house boat and according to an ang moh, who was the owner of the 150 grand boat above... this house boat costs a few million...walau. the season parking for this house boat sure also very siong.
sigh...how i wish i have the money to buy all these...but seriously if i have the money i also won't buy it lah. haha...but have the money first. sian.

final destination

for wednesday's presentation, the Q&A session was disastrous, with a capital D. the tutor thought our answers were bizzare and the entire class disapproved us. they started to bombard us with so many questions that were unrelated to what we have presented. since the questions were so unrelated, we were clueless about what answers to give. and we (the team) were like sitting ducks.

normally i love Q&A sessions, cos i love to debate, i love to rebut, more importantly i love to tell people how great my idea is and how theirs suck. but i couldn't say a thing that day...because i knew our project lacked substance...basically it's a flop.

i was sad, very very sad. so sad that i actually teared a little in class after the presentation. fortunately i fought back my tears even before anyone notices it...really didn't want to show that i'm weak. i tried my very best to defend the team, but halfway through i just lost morale...and kept my mouth shut...and wither to the back...and try to camouflage myself behind my mates hoping that no one would see me. for this, i despise myself. i felt so useless, and i hate this feeling of useless/helpless-ness.

to sum up. i felt so fucked.

and this terrible feeling didn't just end there. i took it home with me. by the time i got back, i was feeling super exhausted, but i could hardly sleep. throughtout the night i kept thinking "shit i should have said this and that..." "damn i should have answered so and so's question on this and that"... and by the time i was done with dwelling, it was time to wake up and go to school for another presentation.

*yawn*

in contrast, the presentation today was near perfect. transition was smooth, no glitches at all and i gave my speech like a true professional. the class thought the slides looked great and had interesting contents. more importantly, the tutor loved our presentation and was full of praises for our team after. i was over the moon...especially since this particular tutor is one of my fav. fav. professor in NTU!!

the team even went out to celebrate our success afterwards. we had so much good food and drinks and even played bowling. the norwegian exchange students in the team were such fun people to hang out with!

guess...i'm lucky afterall to have ended my final presentation in NTU on a happy note.

this norwegian ang moh on my team is so so so cute!!

new best friend

introducing my new best friend for the past few nights...

can someone do a karate chop on my neck pls?!?!?! arrrghhh! sibeh painful ah!

all because of sitting in front of my laptop for 12 hours a day! and all these are going to end this thursday!!!

after that i am going to watch my HKTVB day and night, day and night, day and night until my DVD player explodes!!! yeah!

ps: tiger balm plaster really quite power. better than salonpas.

not amused

gosh i am so sleep deprived. despite the end of FYP, i still have two project presentations (back to back) next week. i am struggling with the GMS (my core module) report...so much more to do and i am not convinced what we have on hand is of much substance anyway. (try to convince IM <-- my tutor, yah right) and i'm not even amused since this entire shit contributes to 30% of my coursework. i really wanna do well in this shit. nothing less than A is what i'm looking at.

i hate to work with inefficient, unproductive, selfish, irresponsible people...and people who has illogical trains of thoughts, cannot speak coherently and with absolutely zero creativity...trust me, i met lots of the above mentioned in school and i am so not looking forward to becoming colleagues with them when i go to work in the near future. grr.... but thank god for the good and fun ones i've met though!

i wonder if i'll graduate with an honours? if i do, which class? sigh. sometimes i hate myself for becoming so kiasu. it seems like i have given in to peer pressure...(or even on a national scale?) and pressures coming from the high demands of the prestigious organisations that have come to give recruitment talks in NTU thus far.

will i get a good job? define: good job.

麻坡的华语

this is gan si beh funny lor. and we should be proud of our singlish like how he is proud of his 麻坡的华语! kao!

boh liao email

FYP discussion today was terribly sian...so sian that i've decided to send a super boh liao email to one of my professors just to entertain myself...hahaha. and i can't believe that she actually 'entertained' me by replying. she is a very kind woman indeed.

(names deleted to protect identity, heh)

-----Original Message-----
From: #CHEN PEIQI#
Sent: Tuesday, March 13, 2007 5:16 PM
To: XXX(Assoc Prof)
Subject: Lindt Chocolates

Hi!

I have been thinking of those chocolates you bought for the class the other day...I realised I couldn't buy it anywhere in Singapore?! I searched and searched....

Today I finally found them inside the transit area of our airport...wah...So Expensive!...but I couldn't resist and bought it anyway.

I am now very, very happy.......

pq

ps: I know this email is so irrelevant to whatever....but....just wanted to share my excitement with someone. hahaha. FYP is so boring.

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From: XXX(Assoc Prof)
Sent: Tue 3/13/2007 5:30 PM
To: #CHEN PEIQI#
Subject: RE: Lindt Chocolates

Hi Peiqi

This is indeed an unusual email, but I can never be happier when someone shares her joy with me:-) I hope your FYP is wrapping up nicely.

I've had a long day myself...tempted to shut down the computer and leave, before it pours.

See you in class this week.

XXX

othello

my skin was blistering although you cannot really tell from this photo. geez, LL's skin looks nicer hor? ok the only consolation is that, my thighs are slimmer than hers!! YAY! :P

ok, i'm almost done with the peeling. just a little more to go! cannot wait to go and tan again! wants to try indoor tanning leh...at least confirm won't sunburn. anyone knows what the charges like?

there's a reason why i love TP

view from TP canteen. eating lunch here is always a pleasure. view from NTU canteen. eating lunch here is always a pressure. food from TP canteen. cheaper than NTU, very nice plates somemore hor. the food served in NTU canteens...pathetic, same price as coffeeshops but not the same standard. and the styrofoam bowls/plates and plastic forks/spoons just irritate the hell out of me! grr...

TP library has huge screen for students to watch soccer, and even a cable TV corner for them to watch SCV lor. spectacular view from the 10 storey high library, what a lovely campus. look, not a single soul in the library because it's school holidays. and i think this is the right attitude! school holiday = go out chiong with friends what! unlike in NTU, everyone studies 24/7/365 round the clock. recess week also got so many people camp in the study rooms. see liao i sibeh sibeh sian.

best bookshop in Singapore...yes it is TP bookshop, not Mama shop. love it love it love it. sells a wide selection of Meiji candies! the only minimart in NTU is about 800 li away from the main study block. and the selection of snacks...pathetic again.

need i say more? TP rocks and NTU sucks big time. really no horse run. i seriously do not think i will ever step into Boon Lay for a very long long time to come after i graduate from here.

my epidermis is so dead

and so...the peeling has not stopped. i have been leaving shavings of dead epidermis behind everywhere i go. every morning when i get out of bed, a significant amount of dried, crumpled dead skin can be found on the sheets. and everytime i get up from the sofa...same scene.

YES MY DEAD SKIN! wahaha...i know it's so digusting!! i is so 变态! hey, i realised it's kinda therapeutic to peel off dried dead skin from your own body you know?! :P but i must be really careful about leaving traces of my DNA behind...later kena cloned how.

luckily my sunburn thingy didn't stop me from winning my third consecutive gold medal for NTU at the IVP last weekend! :) was quite happy that i won again, but really quite sian to see my opponents give up without much fight. i mean, not trying to be cocky here, but i think the process of the competition is far more important than the results (altho also important lah), and what experience can they hope to gain if they don't try to attack at all? anyways went to see my favourite doc again yesterday...was there to get my cortisone jab for my wrist. yes i love steroids! hopefully it cures my injury once and for all. i also decided to take my chicken pox vaccinations at his clinic since i was there...but i was so unwilling to fold up my sleeves for the injections cos my hands are peeling so badly that i look like i have leprosy! luckily my charming, sexy (but bald) doctor never at any time gave me any look of despise. :D

bye bye ice cream vaan

good times are always short lived :( why you go back to kangaroo land so fast? i is a very sian girl in Singapore now :(

i miss the times where you come and watch Prison Break in my room! i miss the times where we go out and eat FATS all day long! erm....although i don't quite miss the times where you secretly take act cute pictures of yourself using my phone lah... :P sigh, will i see you again? fuck the Aussie PR lah! come back and be kiasu Singaporean!! don't you miss sweating profusely under the hot and humid weather? don't you miss chopping seats at hawker centers with umbrellas and packets of tissue paper? don't you miss taking the MRT like squashed sardines? don't you miss tapping the EZ link card and listen to the SHARP BEEPS it makes?? come back lah! Singapore rulez!

peelfresh

i have been so busy...applying the following gels/creams/balms on myself like every half an hour in an attempt to stop my skin from peeling.

and i failed.

therefore i am still peeling!

boo hoo!!!

sunburnt in bintan

it was a weekend of quality time spent together as a family in Bintan! the rooms we were booked on were spacious and had a spectacular view of the resort from our balcony. the guys think they have conquered the world. heh. i think it felt like their 2nd honeymoon for mum and dad...haha. once dad hit the waters, he was transformed back to the kampung kid he used to be when he was much younger! damn funny lor he. kept jumping at the waves and crying out for attention like a small boy. dad's trying to show us that he could still climb a coconut tree, and flexing his muscles to prove to us that he is still very fit. lol. 返老还童! and mum kept forcing me and dad to help her take pictures of every single rock/plant/tree/beach/flower she sees! this is called an ATV, i think it stands for Automatic Transmission Vehicle?? anyways, damn cool. we followed a guide who took us through some really rough terrains around the island.
surprisingly, mum was rather daring this time! although she kena accident many times along the way...always running into trees and sand piles...ha!

i really liked Bintan and i'm definitely interested in going back! the beach was beautiful and not crowded at all. at one time it felt like i was sunbathing on a private beach...but i got quite badly burnt by the sun. =( now i'm experiencing pains all over! and i got a little disoriented when i woke up this morning, due to the sunburns too! grr...

good thing is...i have a very nice tan now! :P

year of the pig(out)

Chinese New Year = FATS...eat eat eat. i've been pigging out! :(

first it was an early reunion dinner with sis and PD before they go off...
this restaurant is at Pan Pacific 37th floor. super expensive ($600 for 6 courses), food was good but somehow i think it doesn't justify the cost? then it was reunion dinner at home on new year's eve...for the first time, my grandparents were invited for reunion dinner with us at our place. my eldest uncle came too. and i polished off all the food on the table. :( then it was reunion dinner again with the entire extended family at grandma's place. all my previous dieting efforts have gone to the drain. look at all the food grandma whipped up for all of us. aiyoh...damn nice lah! then dad told my cat to help him pick 4 lucky numbers after reunion dinner cos apparently he has ran out of ideas. i think he is more siao than my ah siao. as absurd as it may sound...the cat really picked out four numbers for him!! wahahaha. but never strike. so now dad is a little upset with the cat le. ^^" now you see it...soon you won't. :( it doesn't help that the house is full of new year goodies and junk food. argh. must really stop eating!